Appointments Post

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[December 25th]

[imatreenow]

If the opportunity presents itself again, I won't hesitate to go after it.

[He starts to smirk again, wanting to push away the uncomfortable feeling of freedom that breaks open around him when Silver somehow agrees with him. But then the jagged question that had poked at him back then, as he watched the blood seep from Yuan's body, stabs him again: Wouldn't Martel be disappointed? The result is a hurt grimace.]

[December 25th]

[tsuntrader]

The saying's an eye for an eye, not an eye for a head. The worst thing you could do to someone is stop caring about them. Stop giving them that leverage.

Defeating someone over and over doesn't accomplish that. [...] But that's my take on it. I can't tell you what to do.

[December 25th]

[imatreenow]

No, you can't.

[Then he'll do that thing where he emphasizes how divergent their views are, to convince himself that he shouldn't want anything to do with Silver.] Ignoring him would only give him peace...and he doesn't deserve such a luxury after everything he's done. He can never be punished enough. [He still believes this, even if...Martel...]

[December 25th]

[tsuntrader]

It works both ways. You won't have peace until you ignore him. Don't you deserve that?

[December 25th]

[imatreenow]

[He's quiet, not because he's considering Silver's challenge, but because he doesn't know why he would say it like that.]

...I have no peace either way. [Yuan is far from the greatest trouble plaguing him, just a convenient scapegoat.]

[December 25th]

[tsuntrader]

If that's the case, you might as well take whatever bits of peace you can get.

[December 25th]

[imatreenow]

[He scoffs softly.] What difference does it make? [If he drops his grudge against Yuan, his grudge against Kratos, against those who had destroyed him, he would still be alone and miserable.]

[December 25th]

[tsuntrader]

Exactly. "What difference does it make" means that it can't make things worse, right? And keeping things the way they are doesn't make anything better.

[December 25th]

[imatreenow]

Did you come here to lecture me?

[December 25th]

[tsuntrader]

No. [...] You lend yourself well to it, but no. [And that's hardly even lecturing.]

[December 25th]

[imatreenow]

What I do and what I believe is none of your business.

[December 25th]

[tsuntrader]

[...Yeah, that's true. But...

...But this is a pointless argument.] It's Christmas.

[December 25th]

[imatreenow]

The day means nothing to me. [He tries not to associate the date with the time he had spent with Silver, Frey, and the others last year, as a child who could trust too easily.]

[December 25th]

[tsuntrader]

Doesn't matter.

You're alone here, aren't you? Are you really telling me that you want to be alone on Christmas?

[December 25th]

[imatreenow]

[Of course not. He doesn't want to be alone on any day; he had never wanted to be alone again. The world never cared what he wanted.] ...I'd rather be left alone than bothered by humans.

[December 25th]

[tsuntrader]

[...] Alright. The offer's still there though, if you ever feel like taking it.

[December 25th]

[imatreenow]

[He had been prepared for Silver to press further, ready to block his questions from burrowing underneath his skin. Instead Silver just...backs off. He doesn't know which he hates more, but he scoffs.] I won't.