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Mm. I still think that.

[Because of what he did, it was personal for Hidan too. That endless cycle of revenge Naruto talks about, and such.]

But I didn't stop there. I only shared certain plans with Masaomi and Ino... the ones I decided to act on.

[Which he didn't get to act on. The final plan was his resolve to get something from the Malnosso to remove Hidan's immortality.

He thinks of how unsatisfied he was, watching him die.]

There was more where those came from that I wasn't so forthcoming with, including ones that may have seen me dead.

Because they'd try to talk you out of them? [It's a guess, anyway. He doesn't know Ino, but Masaomi reacting that way wouldn't surprise him.]

Because they'd want to be there.

I still don't see the part where you're supposed to have consequences for this.

[...]

Regardless of all of that, my friends deserve better than the way I treated them. I didn't just omit things, and plot actions that would hurt them...
[Some other emotion crosses his face, knotted between his eyebrows. He didn't do it intentionally, but it makes him sick to realize it now.] I cut myself from them, as far as I was able.

[I cut myself from them.

That... That makes more sense. Put in those words, that...

It's something he wouldn't have understood a year ago...

...But it's something he's beginning to understand now.]

[He nods, finally conceding and keeping quiet. He's not sure how to respond to that.]

[Shikamaru's glad for that. Silver can be a smart guy, so if he still couldn't understand, there'd be more problems than just explaining things. He doesn't like telling people how they should feel.

He's still left in a rut though. How does he make up for that? Not just to Masaomi, but to Katara and Law...

He rolls the dice.]

[He focuses on the board again, watching the dice roll.

Then after a moment, he quietly speaks again without looking up at Shikamaru.] Nothing to do but keep moving forward.

Don't need to tell me that.

[He lands on a chance space and picks a card; carts himself off to jail.]

Good. [...Well that's no fun. At least it wasn't him...]

I'll sit for three turns. Then I'll figure it out.

Apologize. Keep it brief. Let it go. You can't change what you did. Move on. Don't make the same mistake twice.

[Turns one, two, and three.]

And ask for help. If anyone's eager enough to get involved in some life-threatening mess, they shouldn't be a problem with "point out if I'm cutting you out or pushing you away."

[It's straightforward, isn't it?]

Heh... making it stupid simple for me, Silver?

[There's a smile on his face, but a morose edge in his words.]

I'm not a fan of over-complicating things if I don't have to. [That's exhausting. He could even call it troublesome.]

You shouldn't need that spelled out for you in the first place.

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I'm not myself lately. It's one of those situations you ask for help in.

[And he's appreciative of it. Silver's is the most objective opinion he has right now, and of his friends, it's his thinking that closest mirrors his own in that respect.

Don't complicate things. Don't falter.

You just had to deal some extremely dangerous guy from home that you have personal issues with. That's enough to make anyone act different.

That can't be my excuse every time.

That won't be the situation every time.

[Which is exactly why it's dangerous. He remembers detonating the tag on the Cultist who hurt Masaomi, and thinking about what he would do if he ever found the one that killed Temari.

He hasn't been toeing the line; he's been drawing a new one each time he crossed the last.]

Yeah. Because I'm gonna stop that shit before it gets that bad again.

Good.

...None of this makes it fair for anyone to bring it up while you're in here.

Edited 2012-12-29 21:38 (UTC)

[He waves a hand.]

I'd rather hear about it now than have them sit long enough to bury it.

[...]

Fair enough.

[Third turn's up, and he's out of jail.

...you know, he's still not sure what he's doing, but he thinks he can make it work out. For the first time since that argument with Masaomi, he believes it too.]

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